i met him by the river near the railway line.
My breath hitched as i approached him
Overwhelmed by his sunshine smile,
blinding in the ebony glaze of the night
Silent breath buzzing caught outside the body
everything rang loudly through my bones
Tiny branches crunched under my heavy boots. cracks i wouldn’t even think of mending.
His soles gently
calmed their shrieks as i curved us
into a new path.
Lurching branches scratched my burning face, caressing his cheeks in ease
My feet halted with the blood fleeing my body, pale as a soul.
Itching at my anxiety, itching at my selfish resolve
We were so close
Too close, a phantom of my own hands wrapped around my breath
suffocating me slow and deserving
His hand itched for mine, and I accepted it unwillingly but easily in some ghostly daze
Our palms still separated by a pool of sweat,
his water mixed with my noxious dirt.
But He was content,
So i supposed I should be
His smile became fuzzy.
My fault lurched at him without my consent
and I tried to push him from the blow
Words empty and caught
Then rambled and vomited with every intention to run the throat dry
And i left him there, confused and unsatisfied
All i could offer him in the wake of my cowardess
Sleeping smile slapped away by my intent.
– –Jennifer Aria <*3
Originally Posted December 24, 2016